Sunday, August 19, 2012

The Questions of Truth...

I used to have a "personal" blog here... back in the days of "knowing for certain" what it meant to follow Christ... When I "knew for certain" that being gay was a sin... that people on welfare are bums... and that my family should have ONLY Christian friends... Those were the days I believed every word from the pulpit without question... when I "knew for certain" that the earth is only 6000 years old...when I took every word of the bible in the literal sense...

One day my husband said something to me that rearranged my universe... No he didn't admit to having and affair or say he was leaving me to become a monk... he said; "You're not teaching our children that dinosaurs are only thousands of years old right?"  I was devastated. We were no longer on the same biblical page... I knew he had been listening to some new podcasts... and Craig has always been one to question things... but to go against the bible... that would mean we were DOOMED TO HELL... So I cried and I raged... if the things I had learned from "experts" like Kent Hovind about how the "evils of secular science" were lying to us about the age of the earth... then what else were "good christian folks" unintentionally lying about?

And so began my own rebellious questioning:

  • Is being gay really a sin?
  • Is the bible inerrant?
  • Is it really God's intention that I bow to my husband's authority?
  • Will there actually be an end times?
  • Is God omnipotent?
  • Does God have a set plan for us or is there free will and God interplays in our plan? Or is it both and how does that work?
Welcome to my faith renovation...


  1. whoa, heavy...I do believe being gay is a sin, and I do believe that the earth is thousands, not billions, of years old; that dinosaurs were created along with Adam and Eve. But, I think it is good to question things so that when you do come to a "conclusion" it is not based on what someone else thinks or believes. I never believe something because of what I heard preached, etc, and always question or research it if need be before I truly believe or don't believe. I think that is all a part of the journey :)

  2. It can be so scary to have your faith rocked and to begin that questioning phase. I've been there. God is big enough for your questions...He can handle them. Even if you come to different conclusions than you believed before, He is still big enough. I have struggled, and am honestly still struggling, with some of these questions. One thing I know: God has always been faithful. Blessings on your journey!

  3. Ah, yes, I remember when I started questioning. In fact, I still am! I'm not totally convinced that there's no God, but I can't believe in biblical inerrancy anymore. Or Young Earth Creationism. Or that homosexuality is a sin (of course I am bisexual).

  4. Wow. It takes so much courage to question what you have always believed. Their is a part of me that wants to tell you what I what I believe, you know try to convince you I am right, but I won't. You need to find out for yourself. What I would encourage you to do is pray, and meditate. Meditation is christian, don't worry. In deep prayer God will slowly reveal Himself to you, so you don't have to rely on what others have told you, or even on yourself. Learn to be still and you will KNOW He is God.

  5. Good for you! I think that believing everything your preacher says is quite different from seeking truth through God's guidance.

    My mother was a biology professor, and I was raised Unitarian. When I became a Christian, I wondered whether I was supposed to give up believing in evolution. After repeatedly reading Genesis and praying on the subject, I realized that evolution IS God's plan and science does not conflict with divine creation at all!

    Oh, and here is my opinion of homosexuality in twelve words.